i lost my dad in 2009, lost my aunt Abby whom was like a mom figure to me,I've lost my uncle when dad passed hes all i had as a father figure than the woman who helped raise me since newborn my nanny passed right after my bubby my uncle 2015 or 2016. then last year October 22nd i lost my mom that raised me since before i was a year old. losing her my mom my dad my nanny and bubby and aunt was the hardest thing in my life. i lost my step dad this year and i just lost my baby sister at the age of 30 i'm having a very hard time dealing with this one she was my baby i helped raise her she was my best friend we talked everyday her and i looked a lot alike.so i have that left and i have her ashes her with me and i have dads too... the hurt and heartache will never go away and no it does not get any easier either i don't care what anyone says my dads been gone 11 years and its still very hard on me and my baby sister for some reason it hurts worse than mom dad my nanny and the rest of my loved ones I've lost that helped raise me. my birth mom hasn't been there for me really thru out my childhood or adulthood life. and now the only brother i have and only sister i have left are treating me like i'm a pos like i don't exist im not their sister not blood to hear them say it...sorry about their luck i am and will always be their big sister no matter what... i haven't done anything for them to treat me this way i need them in my life and they need me in theirs i thought us losing our dad mom and our little sister would bring us closer no it broke us apart and i don't understand why its breaking my heart even worse because they way they are treating me for no reason... my hearts already in pieces and i cant take it much longer